About

i was 10 years old when i snuck into my dad's office on a weekend. he had a computer. i had curiosity and absolutely no supervision. i typed something into this weird white box and pressed enter. google search. i didn't know what it was. i didn't know what i was looking for. but something came back. an answer. from nowhere. from everywhere. i sat there for two hours just asking it things. that was it. that was the moment. i grew up in a small town where ambition was considered a personality flaw. where doing something unusual meant explaining yourself to everyone at every family dinner for the rest of your life. the internet was slow. the expectations were slower. but i was already gone. at 15, i built a computer game. it was ugly. the physics were broken. the sprites were borrowed from places i probably shouldn't have borrowed them from. but i made a thing that didn't exist before i made it. and i remember thinking, this is the only thing i ever want to do with my life. nobody around me got it. they saw a kid disappearing into a screen. i saw architecture. i saw systems. i saw problems shaped like puzzles and puzzles shaped like problems and all of it felt like music. which brings me to music. i love it the way some people love religion. not casually. not as background noise. as something structural, something that explains how the world is organized. i feel the same way about philosophy. about the question underneath the question. about why things are the way they are instead of some other way. i think that's why i build. because building is just applied philosophy. you have a model of reality. you test it. reality pushes back. you update. repeat until something works or you run out of time. i've never run out of interest. i got into iit patna for computer science. transferred into cse after ranking top 10 in my batch as a freshman. which sounds like a brag but really it just meant more access. more hard problems. more people who understood what i was pointing at when i said, no wait, look at this. then came the building. real building. neurevo a product i built. agent memory consolidation infrastructure. the kind of thing that sounds abstract until you realize the entire future of software runs on agents that need to remember things, and nobody's really solved that cleanly yet. we're solving it. oneiitp. an app i built for iit patna students. 6000+ people using it daily. which is strange to think about. 6000 people. every day. depending on something i wrote. i became one of the largest contributor to droidrun.ai, an open source framework with 8000 github stars and real funding behind it. i did that while being in third year student with a full course load and an attempt to build startup and whatever else life decided to throw that time. i think about systems the way other people think about plots of tv shows. i will stay up until 3am not because i have to but because the problem is still open and an open problem is an itch i physically cannot not scratch. i am a freak about building. i have made peace with this. somewhere between the first google search and now, i stopped asking for permission from the world to take up space in it. i just build.